Yesterday we had our weekly ultrasound. And the original date of August 10th has been moved to tomorrow.
Because Liz has no amniotic fluid, the womb is compressed and the baby’s placenta (that’s what keeps him alive) is being compressed. If it gets pinched the baby will have no way to breathe and could pass in the womb.
The doctor said that Journey’s defied all the odds in making it this far, and he doesn’t want to see him pass away inside soooo…..here we go. Nothing has changed as far as the diagnosis. Our last visit still puts Journey chances as 90% that he doesn’t make it. But ready or not, he’s coming tomorrow.
It’s hard to say how Liz and I are feeling right now. A little anxious, a little excited, a little nervous, a little scared… but hopeful. Are we a little hopeful or a lotta hopeful? I don’t know that Hope comes in measurements. I don’t think that’s how hope was made. Here’s how Hope was made:
Doubt and Certainty had a baby…they named her Hope.
It’s a beautiful oxymoron, but that’s what hope is, an oxymoron. It’s what’s born when you have no idea what will happen – but you’re certain of the outcome.
Psalms 147:11 “The LORD delights in those…who put their hope in his unfailing love.”
I’m certain God loves me. I’m certain God loves Liz. And I’m certain God loves Journey. And that’s where I put my hope. Therefore I’m certain that no matter what happens, we will all be better for it. “Jesus loves you!”. It’s the oldest cliché in Christianity, and that’s a shame. Because it’s also the bedrock of everything we believe. If it loses its meaning, we lose all hope. But if you believe that…well…you can make it through anything. Because you know how love works…
1 Corinthians 13:7 “Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”
Thank you for loving me Jesus.
And thank you my friends. Thank you for loving us. Liz and I have been blown away by all your comments here (read the comments on the last post to hear some amazing testimonies), all your emails, phone calls, text messages, Facebook\Twitter shares. There are people praying for us we don’t even know, and we have you to thank for it. We have never felt more love and support like we have these past few weeks. And we could never repay you for your intercession and thoughts.
Liz has been so moved she wants me to snapchat throughout the day tomorrow just to keep everyone posted (snapchat: JJ_Vasquez). Maybe…lol. She’s crazy, but has also been crazy convinced on the power of prayer, so we’ll see. Love you all, and we’ll be sure to update all our friends. Regardless of the results – your friendship has left an indelible mark on our hearts.
The surgery is scheduled for tomorrow morning (July 31) at 9amEST. So if you find the time, please pray for Journey. Regardless of the outcome, we are sure of one thing: No matter what happens tomorrow, we will never be the same again. No matter what happens, the Journey starts tomorrow. We’ll be OK. We’re certain He loves us.
And in case the uncertainties and unanswered questions of life should lead you to forget, like they almost did us…be certain…God loves YOU too.